That Night With You

You were sitting beside me, my hands in yours, and yours around mine, very tightly, not wanting to let go. It just fits, so precisely, as if it was perfectly planned and designed. I wished the time would just freeze at that very moment. I don't wanna let go of you. I would never let go of you. 

It was midnight. It was dark and calm, but still with a little ray of light shinning in from the porch. 

Feeling cozy as I cuddled beside you. Your broad shoulders, made me feel secure. You fulfilled your promise,as you gently kissed me on my hand, on my cheeks. The warm and sweet sensation, the feeling of being loved. Indescribable. Looking at you, my heart longs for you, cause you mean everything. Right here, right now. I wanted to kiss you on your lips but I resisted. I just wanted to wait for the perfect moment.  

"Would you still ask me to be your girlfriend after form five? " I whispered.

"Please don't state the obvious. Or maybe, you already were."

Seconds changed to minutes. Time just flies when you least expect it. I closed my eyes, enjoying the moment with you. I think I almost slept though. And when I opened my eyes, your eyes were fixed on me. I smiled. Helplessly, I shut them up again. 

You said that you were worried about the future, abnormal for the age of yours. I chuckled. Don't worry honey. God's in control. 

"I'm gonna miss you so much for not getting to see you for another long week."

"Same. "

Silence prevailed. Not wanting to say anything, but just to enjoy the silent moment with each other.

It's about time to go to bed. Reluctantly, I let go of your hand. You kissed me on the cheeks again, as a goodnight kiss. You whispered in my ear, "I love you, Sweetie"

 "I love you too" I kissed you back. I hugged you and steadily stood up, walked to the door and went to my room.

How Much is Much

"Do you actually love me that much? I am just not sure. They say, that when a man really loves a women, he would do anything to make her happy, make her feel appreciated. I doubted again.You are a nice person. But do you love me that much? You used to say that, actions speaks louder than words"

But then, if a man really loves a women, he would say I love you even if he knew she might not say it back, he would still wish her good night even if she fell asleep and wish her good morning even though he knew she couldn't reply. He would hug her when she is crying and say everything is okay even though he knew that she wouldn't even care that he is there for she is crying for another man. He would surprise her everything he could think of without feeling embarrassed of how people would think of him. He is willing to sacrifice all of him to her, not wanting anything back, taking every advantage of being with her even if people think that he is crazy, talk to her when no one wants to, stay with her when she feels lonely, listen to her when she is sad, encouraging her to make her move on with courage, give her his time even though he knew that they are not just but good friends. It's not a totally must for a man to do all these to show his love, but if he would, the women will surely, inevitably fall in love with him. Then don't, will then, regret for not doing everything you can to love her, for your chances are gone, your effort is futile, because her heart has, already, been stolen away by somebody else, the one who really made the effort to love her, not letting go of any chances, not taking things for granted, for he loves her, so dearly and deeply, and he would do anything for her, and when he says anything, he means it. He observes. He looked through her. He knew how she feels even more than her boyfriend does. He stays with her, quietly, when she is smiling and talking with another man, he smiles by himself, happy for her that she has found someone whom she loves. He sacrificed his time for her on the phone, even though he knew that he is not allowed to use his phone at such a late night. 

" I think we should give ourselves some time, to think and make our minds clear, so that we can decide whether we should still be together."

Maybe because, she thinks that he does not love her enough, not more than another man.

She is confused, depressed.

Maybe it's better for them to give each other a little time. To lead them closer to the love they want to find.

Will Always be Loving You

I told you that I was afraid of my upcoming exam.

You looked at me, nodded with a plain smile on your face. 

I asked you if I was annoying. 

You smiled a little stronger. You said no.

I told you that I felt that I'm always troubling you, wasting your time and being needy.

You said you don't mind.

I was always the fast tempered one, the emotional one, the dependent one. 

I thought I was strong enough, I thought I could pull through this, I thought I was confident.

But deep inside of me, there's something else. Its not what you knew I was.

Yes, I was always known as the most determined, persistent and strong person.

But, honey, sometimes, I'm just not that brave and courageous.

Sometimes, I'm timid. Sometimes, I just want to depend on someone. 

I was babbling away. Worried. Normal guys would have just gave up. But you...

You didn't play with my hair, or caress my face with you warm hands. You didn't lean closer to me to hug me, or plant a kiss on my cheeks, or forehead.

You didn't simply just tell me 'Its okay, its only just an exam, not a big deal'.

Either did you get out of the room, take a guitar and sing me a love song.

But instead, you were just there, looking at me. You sighed as you smile. You said in a whispering sound.

"Hey, sweetie. Um. Don't worry okay? We have a great God. Just pray. I will pray for you. I can't assure you that everything will be okay, but I can assure you that God will always be with you. And if you get the results you wanted, I shall be happy with you and praise God, and I will say, 'I'm so proud of you sweetie! See? God is so good. Anyways, I love you.' But if, you didn't get the results you wanted, then I shall accompany you though out every thing, still thank God, and I will say, ' Its alright sweetie. God loves you and He knows the best for you. Besides... I still love you anyways' "

You silly.

Thank you, for loving me anyways.

Cause you know what?

*whispers back* I love you too.

Their First Kiss

There she was, walking down the aisle, in the church where they first met, stunning as she could ever be. Her beaming complexion were hiding behind the veils, the white satin lace wedding dress fitted her perfectly around her curves and edges. Wedding bells, flowers and ribbons were decorated around the church. This is the day. Their day. The promises they made were sealed 12 years ago and now, truly fulfilled. She could not believe how the years and days has gone by. They are still freshly and newly in love. But yet, it has been 12 years together.

The pianist ran his slender fingers around the keys of the piano. Sophisticated and flawlessly. As the wedding song filled the service hall, hundreds of eyes were fixed on the intricately-made crystal flower arch that were specially made at the main door. The sweet little flower girl walked carefully one the red carpet, carrying a basket of petals and gracefully throws them on the floor. Next comes the handsome ring boy, taking the pillow with a pair of beautiful rings on it which symbolizes the promise between the two. And here comes the gorgeous bridesmaids and then the maid of honor and finally, her. She wrapped her hands around her father's arms, slowly balancing on her heels and long wedding gown. The joy and slight nervous in her eyes were perceptible. Cameras and smartphones were held up high as she stride down elegantly down the red carpet till the pulpit, absorbing every moment of this very day.

He was in his tux, set his hair with his favorite hairspray and her favorite perfume. His eyes sparkled when he catches her in the gown, beautiful as ever in the inside and out, he thought to himself. She's my wife! He just couldn't believe it that this day would actually come. 12 years! 12 years of ups and downs, twists and turns, joy and sadness. However they stood together. They never gave up.

"........ Do you so promise to honor, to love, to cherish her in sickness as in health, in poverty as in wealth, in hardships as in blessings, till death alone shall part you?"

He looks into her eyes, "I do."

"......Do you then promise to honor, to love, to cherish him in sickness as in health, in poverty as in wealth, in hardships as in blessings, till death alone shall part you?"

"I do."

After exchanging the rings, " You may now kiss the bride"

Suddenly, the bride took over the microphone from the pastor. "Before this, I would like to say something. I remember the time when we started dating, and I told him that I would never kiss anyone on the lips unless i'm going to marry him. So I just want to tell you honey, that I thank God for you in my life. Thank you for waiting for me patiently, for being there for me through everything we have been through, for just loving me unconditionally. I'm truly blessed to have you."

She puts down the microphone, stood there and looked at him.

He then picked up the microphone again, still not moving his eyes away from her. "No, we are blessed to have each other. And i shall now, kiss my bride."

She was in tears. He then opened her veil, caressed her cheeks with the back of his fingers, placed his hands on her neck and she, her hands on his broad chest, cherishing the familiar security and protection in his presence ..... And, they kissed, not too passionate but longingly, slow and sweet. The congregation cheered joyfully as they share this meaningful day with the newlyweds, praying in their hearts that they'll continue to shine for Jesus in their days to come.

It was their first kiss after 12 years of courting, and they shared it in the church, in front of the huge congregation and of course the presence of the Most High God. Indeed, they were truly blessed.

I Promise, Sweetheart

Sweetheart,

I can't promise you to be rich when i grow up, buy you expensive presents or afford luxurious getaways.

But sweetie, i can promise to earn enough money to raise our kids, to pay the bills, to refill the empty cookie jugs, to get a decent car and take you to places you've always wanted to go to.

I can't promise you to get a professional career, to make you proud to introduce me to your friends and tell your girlfriends that i own a successful company.

But sweetie, i will promise that you will be proud to tell your friends, not that your husband is a professional, a high ranking CEO but instead a loving and responsible father, a loyal and an understanding husband, a filial and generous son-in-law, that you will not be ashamed of being mine.

I can't promise that we will have no arguments or cold wars.

But sweetie, i can promise you that i will not be slow to say sorry, to break the ice, to be patient with your fast temper, to understand why you are not happy, to listen as you complain and whine.

I can't promise you that i won't get mad at you.

But sweetie, i promise that after every mistakes, there will always be a 'its okay' and 'i still love you sweetheart'

I can't promise that i will not let you down or disappoint you.

But sweetie, i promise that i shall find out the reason why you get disappointed with me, look into it, be sensible and observant as i improve myself with my all and never take your forgiveness for granted.

I can't promise you that our marriage will be a smooth sailing one.

But sweetie, i promise to go through each and every bumps and turns with you. To love you as i love myself, or even more , and put my family, to put you first before all things. (Except God) To reassure you that you did not make the wrong choice by saying 'YES' to my question, 'Will you marry me?'.

Yours Sincerely,

Honey

Love Lots,

Nicoleeeee

I still love you anyways

Dearest Sweetheart,

You may be worried that what if...

What if you are not having a perfect body shape as i thought it would be? 

I shall tell you reassuringly, my dearest wife, that i love you not just because you are beautiful on the outside, but i love you for being who you are on the inside, that beautiful personality and heart of yours that will last forever.

What if i get bored of you, not getting the pleasures that i opt for?

I shall tell you reassuringly, my dearest wife, i love you and even for your longest nag i shall listen to you. I might perhaps only get bored of you on the 30th of February. Being with you shall be my greatest pleasure and i want no one else but you. Cuz only you are the one. My one. My precious and special one that only you can give me that special pleasure. 

What if you get cancer, broke a leg, or become blind? 

I shall tell you reassuringly, my dearest wife, i love you and i shall accompany you through every section of chemotherapies, take care of you, make you smile, be proud to be called your husband even when you lose all your hair. I shall be your ' walking stick ', take care of you, make you smile, be proud to be called your husband as i wheel you around with your wheelchair. I shall be your eyes, take care of you, make you smile, be proud to be called your husband as i describe the places we shall travel together, the food you are about to swallow, the weather, our children's faces that will most probably look like me if he is a boy and have your big eyes.

What if you are too tired to do the house chores, to cook dinner and to do the laundry?

I shall tell you reassuringly, my dearest wife, i love you and i shall carry you to the bed, kisses you as you rest. I shall sweep the floor and make the bed, i shall make your favourite japanese food fpr dinner and do the laundry. Even if, i am tired too myself. Because i love you more.

What if you embarass me?

I shall tell you reassuringly, my dearest wife, i love you and you will never embarass me. I can't wait and I am proud than ever to tell the world that you are mine.

I will love you even when you feel that you don't love yourself. I will cling to you like what the Bible said, “Therefore a man will leave his father and his mother, and will cling to his wife: and they will be one flesh.” Genesis 2:24. I will respect you, understand you, honor you, like what the Bible said, "You husbands in the same way, live with your wives in an understanding way, as with someone weaker, since she is a woman; and show her honor as a fellow heir of the grace of life, so that your prayers will not be hindered." 1 Peter 3:7. I will cherish and adore you with all my life, as the Bible said, "Husbands, love your wives, just as Christ loved the church and gave himself up for her." Ephesians 5:25. 

I will try my best to love you, just like how God loves us.

Yours Sincerely,

Honey

Love Lots,

Nicoleeeee